Daddy Issues?

I was at work in my office and playing different youtube videos to get me thru the day with things to listen to. One of my recommended videos was a news piece talking about a program that allows kids to spend time with their incarcerated dads for the day in a gymnasium. It's from about 6 years ago but I just clicked it since it seemed interesting. As it played I started to get teary eyed. It was so weird because I didnt expect to really react to it. When I caught myself and tried to just let it play I was getting teary eyed again. It's not like it was super emotional but it did have some moments. I didnt know what to make of it, but I  think it made me think of my kids and the idea of not being able to see them for such a long time. I've watched videos before or listened to songs which made me think of my kids and felt emotional, so I guess this was one of those times. But it reminded me of the time some years ago before I even had kids where I was watching some program and I got teary eyed unexpectedly. I dont even remember exactly what it was about but I know it involved a father and son. That time was the first time I questioned myself that I might have daddy issues. I dont really know what "daddy issues" I might have. I consider myself pretty well adjusted. Its not like I grew up without a father or father figure in my life. I found it interesting that I can get emotional like that since I dont express much emotion often. Maybe what I experienced today was a mix of both my relationship with my dad and my relationship with my girls. Or it could be just feeling sympathy for the kids rather than empathy from my personal relationships. I dont know. Ok, enough emotional videos for now...back to reggae music and football videos.

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  1. HasheemOctober 15, 2022 at 6:26 AM

    yea those types of father /son vids, make me tear up too. nothing much else does.

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